When you get older there comes a point where you realize that you exist. What I mean is, you realize that you are a human being that can make his or her own choices and must provide for yourself. For even more of an explanation watch this video.
I think most people get this awareness when they leave home for the first time, typically for college. We are responsible to make sure that we are eating food, getting loans, and most importantly: doing things that make you happy. What I’ve been thinking about recently is whether or not I’m happy and who controls that.
I think that I’ve discovered that school and academics don’t make me happy, sure I love learning new things but I’d like to do it on my own time, on my own pace, and with classes that I specifically choose. At my school (please tell me how it is for you) we have foundation classes that everyone has to take, then an integration level, and then classes specifically for your major. With foundation it includes math, English, speech, and a wellness class-pretty specific. Integration you have to pick classes within six different broad topics- art, humanities, social sciences, history, and natural sciences. Then, of course, you have your own major requirements. Aren’t I at a point where I should be able to take classes that specifically interest me? Why do I have to meet someone else’s requirements? I should be able to set up my own so that I can get the most out of my college career. I am so much more likely to skip or show up and not pay attention in the classes that don’t interest me yet are required.
This is where the crazy sets in and I just want to be in charge. The next step or idea is to drop out. But if I do that, what am I supposed to do then? I don’t have any crazy talents or been pursuing one certain goal my entire life. So get a job, Emily? Most jobs that I am interested in and would make me happy are jobs that require a degree. It is an endless circle and I just can’t seem to win. Society should not be able to dangle my happiness in front of me and give me no control over the matter.