I have moved into an apartment all on my own. Technically, it is with two other girls but they will not be here until mid-August so for now it is just me. I have only just gotten internet so I have had a lot of me time. While I like that in small doses, it brings upon a lot of negativity upon yourself. Like why aren’t you do anything and why is nothing working out for you.
That is specifically why I named this “The World is Not a Wish Granting Factory.” A quote from the excellent novel, The Fault in Our Stars. (Go see the movie, it will not disappoint. Then read the book, or vice versa.) This has been reining true with me and I’m sorry this is another woe is me post but it has been awhile. However, there is positivity at the end.
Coming with apartment living, is the new urgent necessity of money. I realize that I have not been here that long but I am feeling an overwhelming pressure to find a job. I do have some money saved so I am using that for now but I am feeling discouraged because I’ve applied to quite a few jobs and only have heard from one, who decided to ‘find someone that fit what they were looking for.’ It is somewhat rough to have the only answer being denied but hopefully with my head held high I will find something soon.
The other dilemma I have is having unsettled family back home. I do not want to go into too many details because it is not my story but I would like some advice. A 6 year old boy who I hold quite close to my heart has divorced parents and recently he said that he wishes his parents lived in the same house. Do any readers have any advice on what I can do for him or tell him?
The last thing is another something I’ve been mulling over for awhile. In April, I met with a woman about an internship, which is required of my major. I left the interview feeling very positive and nearly certain I got it. But then I did not hear from her. This was very disappointing to me. I sent her an email in mid-May with no reply. I felt very discouraged and had given up on the opportunity. It started to make me question what I was doing with my life and where I was going, while I know all of these other people doing really cool things, which I am really happy for them! Nevertheless, yesterday, she emailed me wanting to set up a meeting time this week so that I can start working on projects. I am thrilled that I will be interning this summer. Today (6/10) was the last day to add this to my schedule, so yesterday I ran around like crazy to add it.
The world is not a wish granting factory, but sometimes all you need is a little bit of light to become hopeful again.